Never say the words: this is not my life…….
So it has been sometime since my last post and a lot have happened in that time. In this post I will try to cover two major event: our trip to WCC/Busan and reflections on meaning/self-worth With that being said if you just so happen to choose to read for as long as I have your attention, then so be and I will be grateful all the same.
1. World Council of Churches (WCC) and Busan.
The other YAV’s and I have gotten a probably once in a life time chance to the World Council of Churches held in Bexco center in Busan, South Korea. Here are links for both WCC and Busan if you want to know a little more about them. First and foremost it was an amazing event, it is going to be hard to top this YAV retreat. Our days began early and went late into the night, there was so much that we had to fit into a very short amount of time….(we stay for four out of the 10 or so days give or take) but it was well worth it. Being thrust into an environment where there were countless number of people some of which were real movers and shakers in the Religious realm was awe-inspiring. For those who knew me before starting my journey here in South Korea I rarely talked about religious stuff outside of an academic point of view so all of this might be strange to some of you reading, but don’t worry just yet. It’s still hard to put into words how beautiful the opening service and for that matter every service into words. It was what seemed to be an effortless ecumenical event. People from many different walks of life and from different religious paths coming together with the common theme of loving God and trying to do right be their fellow-man. There was people steaming from orthodox to radically liberal Christians, there was Jew religious leaders as well as leader from other faiths all working towards creating a seed of change. Okay now on to other stuff…like wow it was amazing to have the chance to just talk with some of these people. I had the chance to take part in an ecumenical talk entitled “Moral Discernment in the Churches” this talk was based on a seven-year study done within a select group of denominations of the Church on how to broach the topic of intra-faith dialogue within different Christians sects. I will not go in to greater detail but was an uplifting moment in my life. People with Ph.D’s that have been living and working in academic religious field for the better part of their lives wanted to hear what I had to say…they even took note on it. Like a professor holding a Ph.D working at a university and is an active member of their board of trustees told me that I should keep in contacted and knew what I was talking about. At that moment I wanted to cry with joy in knowing that people actually like where I was taking my religious manifesto. That was just one of many talks I had while at WCC and it was truly life changing.
2. Reflections on meaning….self-worth.
So I want to keep this section short and sweet.
because even at your worst …you are fucking incredible. and Other people feel this too.
yup that’s it…when things get really hard for me I repeat this over and over again and I can make it through the day. I never want to say that my life is too hard. I know that I have more privilege but you know what I will not use that as a mean to justify me not saying how I feel without fear or remorse. So yup..no shame….I know I am incredible but I am no superwoman and I am okay with that fact. When I feel down (you try to tell me you have never had day when you tell yourself tomorrow has come and gone and things have not gotten better….) I have to mentally scream “because even at your worst …you are fucking incredible….Other people feel this too.” Andrea Gibson in here poem The Madness Verse , Andrea says “[knowing] there is a chance the worst day may still becoming.” I like thinking that way and truly at this stage of my life and everything i have been through I feel like I can safely say that even if that worst day comes I feel like I might be able to handle it.
Well that all for now, and I leave you all with this……
“Walk with love in your heart and peace will find you.”